Senior year of high school has been a roller coaster of an adventure lately. I began applying to colleges and I thought I would feel somewhat elated but no, I just feel more and more frustrated and anxious. As a seventeen year old getting ready to face the cold, cruel world I feel unprepared. I do not know what is going to happen in the next couple of months; whether I will get accepted to a university or not.
I want everyone to be proud of me but, even now, I am not sure which college best suit me. My interests tends more towards Brown, Yale, and Arcadia. However, that goes beyond my limitations. To be able to feel that I know what I'm doing would be a great comfort yet I feel so lost. Everywhere I turn there is always a game of tug of war. Influences, good and bad, are everywhere.
But, this I know:
I am not good enough.
Straight A's and a perfect GPA will not go far.
What is a mere honor roll when there are other prestigious awards?
Having rank 7 does not compare to being Valedictorian or the first three.
Plus, I cannot think outside of the box.
And I am not creative enough.
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